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You Are Worth The Effort

This week, I am going to run a series on how to start loving yourself, beginning tomorrow, but in planning the series, I suddenly realized how important it was to write a preliminary post to create the space for the others.

The truth of the matter is, you have to believe you are worth your own effort.

In thinking about my own trials and tribulations in the realm of self-love over the years, I think that one of the main reasons I was so unsuccessful for such a long time was that I didn’t believe that I was worth loving. I wanted to stop hating myself, and stop torturing my body with a myriad of dangerous and restrictive diet and exercise regimes. I also wanted to develop relationships with others where I felt safe and loved and whole.

But in my gut, I didn’t believe I deserved any of those things.

My narrative about my body and my life was that I was some how defective or impaired, and that no matter what I did, it couldn’t be fixed, only masked. Thus, I developed this idea that [LIGHTBULB] if I were to be thin and beautiful, if I were to be aesthetically pleasing, it would compensate for the broken shell of a girl I felt like inside.

I believed that if I looked perfect, my life would be perfect.

And then, as I’m sure is no surprise to you, I set out to “love my body” because it was the hot phrase at the time, and it was what all the perfect girls were into. I set out to “love my body,” because someone once upon a time had told me that you could only truly lose weight if it came from a place of self-love.

Sparkle

In setting out to “love my body,” I was coming at it from another angle of body-hate. It became another tool to hurt myself, because I believed that I deserved to be hurt.

I did not deserve to be hurt. I did not deserve the self-imposed terror tactics that I was experiencing.

In fact, I deserved so much more than that – and so do you.

No one can make you believe that you are worth your own time, energy, and effort. No one can tell you how spectacularly amazing and beautiful you are, or how fiercely intelligent and remarkable. No one can make you stop hating yourself.

But I assure you, you gorgeous, sparkly, phenomenal thing you, that you are worth pouring absolutely every last ounce of energy into. Learning how to love yourself is not the easiest task – but it truly does fix everything. It will not happen over night, and you will relapse. But that’s OK, and we will be here every step of the way.

Welcome to 2012.

Love you, endlessly.

12 Comments to You Are Worth The Effort

  1. Cindy's Gravatar Cindy
    January 2, 2012 at 10:15 am | Permalink

    I am SO looking forward to this series! I particularly relate to your statement:
    >>In setting out to “love my body,” I was coming at it from another angle of body-hate.<<
    I, too, seem to have the talent of turning even the best intentions into a way to beat myself up.
    Love your site,
    Cindy

    • Anonymous's Gravatar Anonymous
      January 3, 2012 at 11:19 am | Permalink

      I feel like this can so often be the case… And especially since loving your body is always connected to a bunch of other things (like weight loss), that for someone who is just starting out – it can all be sort of confusing and blend together. Thank you!

  2. January 2, 2012 at 12:05 pm | Permalink

    Oh I can’t wait for this series, Mara! I think I struggle with that too, that my attempts to love myself actually come from another angle of self-sabotage or hate. Looking forward to what this series brings. And Happy 2012 :)

  3. January 2, 2012 at 12:08 pm | Permalink

    Hmmm I wrote a comment and then it disappeared! Anyways, looking forward to this series and what it will bring. A great way to start off 2012.

  4. January 2, 2012 at 2:25 pm | Permalink

    oh, i am so excited to read the rest! per usual, you’re amazing mara xo

    • Anonymous's Gravatar Anonymous
      January 3, 2012 at 11:17 am | Permalink

      Thanks Zoe! xoox

  5. Ela's Gravatar Ela
    January 2, 2012 at 5:33 pm | Permalink

    Awesome! Happy new year to you and thanks for sharing this amazingness.

    Totally right on: I’ve just been thinking about it as I set my own intentions–that I don’t believe I’m worth the effort. The recognition is definitely a place to start from.
    love
    Ela

    • Anonymous's Gravatar Anonymous
      January 3, 2012 at 11:17 am | Permalink

      YAY! Ela, I love reading this!

  6. Melody's Gravatar Melody
    January 2, 2012 at 10:44 pm | Permalink

    Yes! That’s it exactly. Thank you for writing this.

  7. January 3, 2012 at 1:06 am | Permalink

    I feel like you wrote this to me specifically. Thank you. <3

  8. Jessica's Gravatar Jessica
    January 4, 2012 at 1:13 pm | Permalink

    Thank you so much for writing this. Your timing in writing this is impeccable. I got the reality check from my therapist yesterday that if I don’t do this, believe I have worth, then I will stay stuck in my unhappiness. The truth hurts but it’s the truth and if I want a better life I need to do the work. I’m looking forward to reading more…

  9. January 5, 2012 at 9:14 am | Permalink

    Thank you sooooo much for sharing this. I can’t express the importance of coming to the realization that we can have HOPE to love and be at peace with who we are. I had resolved myself to the fact – for so long- that I was permanently damaged and could never know freedom from self hate. Thank you for your voice!!

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