The Bite I Chose Not to Take

April 23, 2014
The moment was familiar to me The quickening of my heart as the plate was placed in front of me, the quiver of sweat appearing on my palms I was at one of my favorite restaurants, with some of my favorite people But in that moment, when a little plate was put in front of me with a complimentary taste from the kitchen, I was quickly pulled outside of myself - into fear, into the murky territory of holding space for myself while operating within ... keep reading

Owning Your Worth

April 15, 2014
On any given day there are a million places to transfer our worth, allowing it to slip through our tender hands and attach itself to moments that pas by Not enough food in the refrigerator unworthy Yelled at the kids for taking too long unworthy Favorite jeans really tight unworthy Bank account overdrawn unworthy Hysterically cried when I felt triggered by my partner, only to push them further away unworthy No comments or ... keep reading

Taking Up Space

April 10, 2014
Noticing from JetBlue Flight, Seat 18B It was the first time since we've been together that Cookie and I didn't sit next to one another Because we bought our tickets late, we were both sitting in the center seats of two different rows Just thinking about the center seat makes my skin crawl  Since I was a child I have had this overwhelming and largely irrational fear about having people between me and the aisle, door, or exit This dread is ... keep reading

Acceptance is Not Stagnation

March 27, 2014
There's something that I need to talk to you about And it begins with this mesage that I received yesterday I also see a fine line between this form of self-understanding and also gently pushing yourself to be a better person If all I really want to do is feel sorry for myself and hide under the covers I might actually be shooting myself in the foot Closing myself off to opportunities that may enrich me and make me feel more alive It came ... keep reading

Spring Cleaning

March 21, 2014
Yesterday was the Spring equinox, heralding the beginning of Spring in the Northern Hemisphere And with it, I feel a presing desire to unburden myself of what's no longer serving me, shaking off the winter, and cleaning up the way that I take care of myself I have spoken about my personal rituals about self-care before, many times, but if you are interested in delving deeply into it, I recommend these posts A Declaration in ... keep reading