The Broken Doll, Letting Go & Living By Heart

January 23, 2014
I am a reforming rule follower A recovering control freak I am almost always in the constant state of reminding myself to unclench my fists, relax my shoulders, and stop white-knuckling my life  This is how I survived for many years I achieved at energetically reading a crowd and morphing myself into whatever I thought might be easily digestible, acceptable, and valued I was born a chameleon I often tell my clients that I held my ... keep reading

Brave Love

January 20, 2014
The truth of the matter is: sometimes it is really hard to love yourself Sometimes, you wake up and nothing in your closet fits Sometimes, you get triggered and respond by yelling and screaming and stomping around and then panic about being unlovable which makes you feel even les lovable Sometimes, people are mean to you for no reason, and you internalize it as though you are inherently flawed Sometimes, people are mean to you for a very ... keep reading

Doing The "Hard" Things

January 15, 2014
I woke up this morning and read this post about hard things you need to do in order to be succesful And since then, I've been thinking about the word hard  I don't necesarily agree with the concepts put forth in the article, but it did make me pause to think about the hard things that I do think are requisites for a meaningful and fulfilled life I will start here: It is hard to live a life written by other people's rules, filled to the ... keep reading

Feeding Myself

January 08, 2014
It took 23 years for me to get a handle on my relationship with food - to be able to get to a point where I was able to take brilliant care of my physical body and begin feeling really good in my skin It took exactly one month to lose my way again  In September 2008, I met Cookie  In that moment and for the first time in my life, I felt comfortable in my body Sexy Pulled together As though I was living in my skin instead of dragging my ... keep reading

A Prayer in the Eye of the Storm

January 03, 2014
The accumulation of snow with hibernating blades of gras beneath  The warm covering of a quiet landscape A momentary lapse between fits of doing and being and perceiving action as truth At the root of it all, I have a complicated relationship with relaxation  On the one hand, I yearn for it I peek into the mirror in the morning at my frazzled hair and dark circles beneath my eyes, and promise myself that I'm going to take it easy today ... keep reading