Oh dearest YOU,
I’m not sure if you get the same way that I do when the seasons are changing, nervous and anticipatory, pacing around the house, readying things for what is to come, cleaning that which seems like it must be cleaned, putting on more clothing, taking it off, reassessing my goals, thinking about my future, and generally filled both with a sense of excitement and dread.
Last night, after cleaning my entire room for hours and hours and hours and throwing away everything superfluous, I fell asleep, only to wake up a few hours later, at what felt like the EXACT moment that the seasons changed. I have been awake ever since.
The interesting thing about the September/Fall shift is that it is “school time.” It indicates on a very basic, intuitive level that massive change is on the horizon, and that the fun days of summer are over. I am in school now, but I remember that even when I wasn’t in school for those years in between, September always seemed to usher in this feeling of what the heck am I doing with my life.
It is also the season that I feel madly in love with my sweetheart, when my life changed (for the better) forever.
If you are from the northeast – it is the time for leaves changing, crisp breezes, sweaters, apple cider donuts, boots, scarves, and pumpkin everything.
It is my favorite time of year, but I can’t help but always feel a little lonely when it comes around. It brings up feelings of nervousness and thinking that I don’t quite know what I’m doing with everything. Its as though my cells start hibernating without consulting anyone, and my brain is skipping a beat trying to catch up.
Do yourself a favor, today: Make time for yourself. Take it slow. Do something fun and loud AND something quiet and helpful. Be nice to the people that you come across. Reach out to someone. Love yourself, today and every day.